I’ve never been into holidays. They seemed forced to me. I get cranky when people say that they are giving to charity because it is Christmas time. Do they only think of charity one month out of a year? I don’t want to be told to be thankful on one specific day. It should happen every day.

So when I started looking at one of my first thoughts was there were a lot of holidays. A lot of what I read said that if you don’t do anything else you should celebrate the holidays. I’m just not good at it. I’m not into decorating for the season because I’m just going to have to take it down again. Besides, it reminds me of perky mothers who seem to have nothing better to do than have a whole house set of decorations for each month. That’s so not me.

I’m learning that my particular brand of spirituality is moving towards , although I don’t self-identify as a witch. I like the definition from about.com –

Home is where the hearth is. Being a kitchen witch goes beyond any specific tradition, it’s more of an attitude.

I feel at my most creative and open when cooking. Especially when cooking for other people – except for the evil mother-in-law. The sight of that woman eating my food makes me crazy. Remember Like Water for Chocolate? The woman put all her feelings into her food so that people who ate it felt what she felt. That doesn’t work as powerfully for me or the evil MIL would have run out of here screaming long ago.

I’m definately feeling out of sorts today. I don’t know if it is the seasonal change or the weather or something else. I’m antsy like I want to do something but I don’t know what it is. I just reread this post and I’m quite cranky today, aren’t I? I think I’ll call the husband see if he wants to go see a movie or something to cheer me up.